silly thoughts.

browsed through some old photographs and love notes..
laughed at the cheesy lines and promises.
smiled at the young, hopeful faces looking back at me, uncaring of the tattered edges of these photos.
and somehow made me wonder..

would you still love me now?

circumstances made me change a lot.
i guess part of that carefree me is still hidden somewhere inside, aching to come out and celebrate life once more. but this part of me needs to be tamed, for things HAVE changed.

and it has given me a fresh puzzle to solve, or a hypothesis to prove.

i know for sure that one of these persons won't feel the same way, not when he left even before events initiated the rather startling and heartbreaking change. i don't care anyway.

but what about you?
would you still promise to love me even if one of the reasons why you do is gone?
would you stay with me?
would you still accept me?

i guess questions are all that's left now.
for i wouldn't know.

and i think that's better.
so that when the answers won't be what i hope they should be, i won't get disappointed.

still i wonder.

story of my life

the rain keeps pouring. fingers still crossed.
the night owl is watching. i'm at a loss.

how could one make things alright?
when everything's falling apart, and the strength that has been with me my entire life suddenly gives up on me, where would i run to?

yes i stay strong for you. i do.
but where would i get mine? who do i run to?

the wind's still howling. the shivers don't stop.
after all's been said and done, would things go back to normal?
or is this just the start?

everything's a mess. and i'm in the middle of it.
life has turned upside down.
and no one's coming to the rescue.

i am the superman.
but i don't know what to do..

:'(

for more drama

bye bye!
take care of yourself.

i'm sure you'll be happier with her!

:)