Something really stupid

I don't know what came into me today.

I suddenly found myself really depressed and confused as if I were some teenager in the middle of her puberty stage.

It may have something to do with me graduating real soon and having to make really crucial decisions that would decide what future I'd be creating for myself.

Shall I just stay here and try my luck in Congress? Or should I just go home, study law and work as my parents would've preferred?

The first consideration would be the people around me. If I stay, then nothing would change I guess. But if I go home, then I'd probably never be able to see them again. Yet even if I would, someday, it'll still be different.

Do I want things to stay the same? Or is everything really just temporary? What is permanent and what is temporary in my life?

What do I want to do? Where do I wanna go? I just can't stay like this forever. People have already come and go. I should too.

To where?

For the first time in a long while, I find myself at a crossroad.

And I am too scared to make a decision that'd bring me to a dead end.